So who knew I would be this antsy to get out of work on such a dismal day! I just want to go home, toss in some DVD and relax... I don't want to do anything for an entire night, well nothing of consequence anyways. Tomorrow I might just hop along to CityMarket (since it's right down the street) and pick myself up some good fresh eats, yummy fresh produce from Amish, they may not believe in technology, clean up after thier horses on the side of the road, and think zippers are the work of satan, but they sure grow some good vege's! Besides it's right down the street and what a better way to get outside than to go mill about with other people in search of the potato that looks like some celebrity or political figure?

It's always a sad day when training is over... mostly because you have to go back to work. But this training was fun actually, I learned some really really new stuff, all surrounding a product that I didn't fully understand at first, but I have a much better handle on. With the bonus of taking that position at work and getting a nice little raise along with it... and the kicker is *less* work.

Kind of busy this last weekend, and this week I'm in training for work so there might not be as much attention to this place, well as much as I had been giving it. Hopefully though this training will earn me a raise at work, maybe a new position as well, but only time will tell on that.

PaintBall is fun! And painful, mostly the morning after... us chubby older folk shouldn't be running around with gun's shooting at each other... well maybe hte shooting paint balls at one another is okay, but the running part?

I'm off to training and to nurse my paint ball bruises.

I have nothing but respect for Pat Tillman and his decision.

Killed in action.

Rest in peace, and thank you for the integrity to show this country that a game is just a game, and to truely be a man you stand up for what you believe.

Heres to you Pat!

UPDATE : There is a petition to get the NFL to acknowledge his sacrifice through-out the season in the form of a patch, or a stick to be worn by all 32 teams. Petition

Well hell....

As of today I'm back on the medication for the auto immune problem I had back in the fall, the ct-scan's yesterday pretty much told the story of how the medication worked, then when I went off of it, well it came right back. There really wasn't any difference in the 2 scan's one from August (when I first found out) and the one from yesterday. So I'm back and the hungry pills for 6 to 8 weeks... blech.

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Grab the nearest book.
Open the book to page 23.
Find the fifth sentence.
Post the text of the sentence on your blog along with these instructions.

"But I want to keep her!" [Lamb, the gospel according to Biff, Christs childhood pal]

Thanks for Brian for this : Khaaaan!!!!

Well I'm going to try something I didn't think I would before, I'm doing some serious considering of using a single email account to deal with all of my other email accounts (at the moment that is 4 that I can think of). I was thinking about using Googles GMail as the likely candidate to do all of this, just because it will make life easier, there is more than enough storage over there, and I just got my account all setup. I haven't decided yet, but I figure it might be worth it in the long run.

On another note my cow-orkers are pissing me off today, could be that I'm quiting smoking too, but that's another story. I basically have come to a complete halt on the work front because I'm waiting on others to do things so I can continue to move forward... did I mention I hate people, even when I was smoking?

Okay I have to admit something, Grace Kelly is one of the hottest women ever! I watched Rear Window recently and I was wondering who the sexy woman that played Jimmy Stewarts girlfriend was... I now understand what the deal is with her, she is hotter than hot in this film...

That is all for now.

Why is it that the weekends aren't anywhere near long enough anymore? Not like they ever were in the first place, but it seems that I leave work on Friday, and all of the sudden it's Sunday night. So here I sit listening to NOFX and wishing I had atleast one more day in the weekend.

I did have sushi tonight for the first time since I left Los Angeles, my ex and I went the weekend before I left, it had become a tradition in fact, way too many Sapporo's and too much sushi was a Friday night for us. Always a good time to be had, and out little anime waitress that always had the beer ready and gave us free stuff, sake, oysters, and other stuff. Tonight was good though, it's alittle weird going to a sushi place out here in the midwest but it was pretty good.

Have you ever wondered why you keep some stuff around, mostly what I'm talking about is stuff from your former life, or relationships? Sometimes I wonder why I keep some things around, since everytime I run across them it just drudges up old feelings. I happened to open up a directory of old emails tonite and it was tough just opening one of them dated over a year ago, a ton of promises that weren't kept, and lots of words that were true from far away, but once that distance got smaller the words didn't hold any truth to them. Oh well.. live and learn... I'll get rid of that directory someday.

Tonight is the possibly monthly meetup for KCBloggers, which is my attempt at creating a centralized community for us bloggers in the area to share, debate, and chat in general. Head on over there if you are in the area, and get on out to Harry's @ 8pm tonite to have a few with the KCBloggers Crew!

Oh ya and to add to the dream thing, I just remembered that a couple of lines from a Radiohead song just kept looping in the background.

"When I am king, you will be first against the wall
With your opinion which is of no consequence at all"

The plot thickens... or just gets weirder.

You know I think I remember being able to sleep one night this week... atleast I thought I did... Funny how sleep deprivation can make you imagine things...

Well I have to admit that I'm getting some sleep at night, just about 4 hours, so I'm not completely without sleep, but I'll tell you what, the dreams I'm having are pretty strange. Last nights had ex girlfriends, co-workers, and super hero's, I wouldn't get to deep about the content of the dream because it consisted of me talking to one of my co-workers and asking how the show was the he recently saw in non-dreamland. All of the other people were in the background and not the main focus of the dream but they were there, very strange.

Once again I vow to actually get something done today! heh... ya right....

Today I vow to actually get something done at work... easier than said as of late. You see we released that new system just about two weeks ago, and well lets just say it has had it's share of problems. I'm praying to the powers that be this morning that the project manager doesn't remember that I'm here and forgets me phone number... and where my cube/cage is, just so I won't get all caught up in support issues. You see when I accepted this job it was a Development job, but instead I'm development and production, which means I get to handle all of the problems... we are slowly starting to transistion this out to the customer care people, which in all practical sense have to have things written out in crayon for them to understand, but it's a start...

Oh well... off to put on the headphones with some kind of pop-punkness that I can crank and not hear anyone else in the building... yup gonna get something done today.

Taxes are done and there is still a day to spare, I'd like to thank someone for reminding me (you know who you are!). Looks like some returns, which will mean the paying off of debt's and other stuff that has just been hanging around, as well as cash in the savings to pay off the up-in-coming doctors bills... blech. I hate this time of year.

I was just goofing around with Google and found some cool stuff it can do that I didn't know.

1) Calcuator : Just put in something like 10-5 in the search and see what happens, I dare ya! See what happens?
2) The local search : This is the coolest for finding stuff right around you, I'll be using this often.

Oh well enough of my goofing around.

Here we go again!

Next Thursday I'm going back in to the doctors to get the CT Scan again, but this time it's the entire trunk of the body, not just the chest like it was last August. They want to double check some things that showed up on the last one, and since some of the "symptoms" are back from my problem before they are checking to see if it has come back from remission and is pissed off... So this is my life again, going to the doctors, getting tested, and really generally not liking any of it. With the bonus of that lovely nasty Contrast you get when having a CT Scan, which makes you taste copper in your mouth for a day or so afterward, blech!

On the flip side of all this there is the fact that I don't have to go through nearly as much as I did last time. There won't be the amazing amount of tests that I had to go through the first time and I can go into it knowing mostly what is going on. Just no more surgery please....

The state of the television industry needs to change...

Not only is "reality TV" still at the top of the list, but great show's like Wonderfalls have already been cancelled after just 4 episodes and even after 13 episodes have already been completed! What in the hell is going on? Fox is looking for the one shot big ratings deal and doesn't seem to want to deal with the moderate ratings that some of the best shows get. Family guy another show that Fox booted is on a come back because of huge response to it being on Cartoon Networks Adult Swim. I hope that UPN, or the WB see that a show like Wonderfalls will being an audience to thier network, as well as make some of us that like smart humor happy. Dumb Asses at Fox....

Are we really in this sort of country?

Stern get cancelled from Clear Channel permanently.

I used to listen to Howard in Los Angeles, I felt that he was fun to listen to, did I find some of this bits alittle over board? Yes! Did I stop listening to him because of it? No! You know why? If he was doing something that I didn't like, or think was funny well I had a ton of other stations to turn to... Right? I mean give me a break people! I can't believe we live in a time period where we should be much more free in the choices that we as humans live and the powers that be have decided to start pushing this sort of McCarthism.

Out of town for the weekend and I'm all beat from it. It was my nephew's 3rd birthday, I can't believe he is 3 already, it just seems like yesterday that he turned 2, then again I was in a different place in my life back then, I thought I had it all figured out, then life tosses me another curve ball... Oh well, life does that to me, and honestly I'm better off for it. Have you ever been with someone, (significant other) that you realized you were changing everything about yourself to be with? Well a year ago that's exactly the place I was, and the dumb thing about that situation is you don't realize how much you are changing until you are away from it, 4 month's I've been officially away from it, even though it was infact my Birthday that I realized what I had become, and that I didn't want to be with her anymore... From the end of August to December... I kept thinking this would change somehow, maybe she would come around, or maybe she would kick me out so I wouldn't feel like it was my fault... but she needed my rent money more than she wanted me to move out.... pretty amazing. Yup... much better place now... at least I think so.

Okay so I had major tech issues with RiotGeek last week, we are talking nasty DNS problems, to the point that I couldn't send or receive email, or even see this site, some people were getting a "parked" page that wasn't very nice... so I tracked down the problem and solved it. Luckily it all came back to life Saturday morning for me, and then I left town... so I got away from this beast for a bit.

Do you ever wish that certain people in your life (or soon to be out of your life) just would stop playing games and be straight up? Give me a break please, I'm not friggin stupid. It's not that difficult to know that you have said what you did to save face when it's obvious you are lying... Maybe I'm just being egotistical but it seems to be you are now playing some kind of game, maybe it's just your way, but don't keep on belittling yourself. Live your life, do what you want, but don't play your highschool games with me, be an adult and just say it, it won' t be nearly as bad as stressing over the games.

Must get high powered allergy stuff from doctor tomorrow... It's been such a long time since I had to deal with my allergies in full effect that I had forgotten what it was all about... yuck. Give me dry weather... some place where it's warm, dry, and most of the growing things are tollerable... oh wait, I left there to come here... blargh!

Looks like Sheri may be back up, so maybe it was just a technical problem or something, I don't know since she hasn' t replied to me, at least with an email address that I get (her yahoo account is blocked by my provider... gotta love that). Well maybe I'll hear the whole story before too long, who knows.

Someone has dissappeared off the net with no warning atleast as far as I have heard anyways.

Sheri where have you gone? You used to be here http://sherishot.skittish.org now it's gone... :(

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Arrrggghhhh! Back to work amidst the unwashed masses so-to-speak....

So I am in a quandry, I have to get a certain someone out of my life for good, but to do so would mean that I have to cough up cash that I don't have, it all surrounds a very poor decision over a year ago and having a very useful item put under this person's name, and when I went to get it out of said person's name they said, "Kid your credit blows ass, here is a giant deposit we want from you to get said useful item into your name"... So I have the choice of paying out the contract and throwing said item back at person I want out of my life for good and just waiting till I can afford a new item, OR paying the massive amount of cash for the deposit and getting it all done that way, even though I'm afraid my original request to have the item transfered into my name has expired which will mean more contact with the person I don't want contact with.... I guess just getting rid of the item would be the better option, it would mean one less thing to worry about and I have a work provided item that does the same thing, in a much less stylish and rather bulky way, but it does do the same thing.... Oh well... if this wasn't confusing enough just wait I'm sure it will get better.

I'll admit that the time change yesterday really jacked me up this morning, I did have the clocks set correctly, but there was one problem... not being able to go to sleep, and my amazing mutant ability to turn it off after it goes off. Yup, so I awoke about an hour after the alarm was supposed to wake me up... this morning was a mad dash to get ready and off to work... weeeee!

Ah domesticated me... Today, clean house, do laundry, wash dishes, go to the grocery store, ummmm what else is there? Listeing to some music really loud (Walt Mink's Live Album to be exact), thinking about cracking open a bottle of wine and just getting things done as they come along.

Oh ya and at the urging of Cheri I started doing the 20 questions in the form of images, so here is what I have so far.

20 Questions

More will be added as I find the images, or as I figure out what the hell I'm supposed to answer with.

Oh ya and I'm trying to get other KCBloggers together for a meetup later on this month, from what I hear last time was a ton of fun, check out the post here and comment if you are around here and want to toss your two cents in!

Wow not a single April Fools joke to be had for me or anyone I know.... sad really. I hate the beginning of the month, it means a good wad of cash out the door for my freaky styley loft, a couple of bills that are hanging around, and well then I'm broke... well as good as broke in all honesty. I've never been any good with cash anyway so what else is new?

So a while ago I had thought about starting to use code names for people I post about so I'm going to start thinking about that, I don't want them to be evil (even though there are some that would deserve that), but I don't want them to be sweet either. I'm not really one to change names to protect the innocent, so this is going to be all new to me. And the thought has also crossed my mind that I will have to create some sort of key to follow while posting... maybe it's just too much trouble and if people can't get around the use of thier names sue me... well you can... you just won't get anything.